OK…Here is the deal.  When Scott died I was told by the insurance co. that a family member should not go and clean out the car.  They said that the tow truck driver did not think it would be a good idea.  So we asked a dear friend of ours to do this task for us.  He is a Baltimore City Police Officer and we felt that he had probably seen worse.  Mike did however tell him to take pictures of the car.  He did and he has had them ever since.  I found out recently that Mike asked for them.  He did this several months ago and looked at them.  Now I have been asking to see them for 5 years.  I must admit I was a little A LOT upset when he told me this.  I felt betrayed somehow and I felt like Mike had lied to me.  We have worked that part out.  Seriously we cried and talk and each asked for forgiveness we are fine.  I however am still a mess.  This really threw me into a tailspin.  Now I am wrestling with should I see them or shouldn’t I see them.  It is strange and I will probably sound like a complete crazy person BUT I feel as if Mike now has a part of Scott that I don’t.  Told ya…crazy!!!  He has seen the car that Scott took his last breathe in.  I am just really struggling with what to do.  I have asked all of my on line angel moms.  I have gotten so many mixed opinions I just thought I would ask the few of you that read this.  So what do you think?  Should I or shouldn’t I see the pics???