First I want to say thank you to everyone that responded to my last post.  Even if you did not comment but prayed for me and my family thank you!  A big thank you to Laurie for her post.  It is nice see any good come from this, mine or someone else’s.  Another big thank you to my niece, Gloria.  she said “And yes you were a good mom to him, you introduced him to God! What greater gift could you have given him?!?”.

That comment brings me to the other part of my post.  Just a thought!  As I reflected on the comment from Glo I began to really think about  what that means.  As a reformed Christian, I know that I had nothing to do with Scott “coming to Christ”  or any other way you want to phrase it.  Only God could draw Scott and only Christ could save him!  I believe that God predestined Scott before the foundation of the earth to be saved and to be His. 

Romans 8-29-30 (ESV)

29 For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. 30 And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whom he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified.

However when my niece made that statement I thought what Christian mother does not want her child to be saved.  And knowing it really had nothing to do with me I was perplexed for a day or so.  Than God in His great love and mercy whispered to me”But you know where Scott is and you saw him walk with me”.  I felt my heart fill with peace and joy at that thought.  By being the mom God called me to be I was able to see my son walk through very real tragedy and difficulty.  I was able to see him get to the other side and to love the Lord with all of his mind ,heart,and soul.  I saw him lay down his own pleasure’s, one of those being the love of this life his girlfriend for God.  I saw him cry over that but stand firm in what God had called him to.  Not to be in a relationship at that point and to remain pure for Christ.  I saw him lead his friends and be there for them.  I heard him speak into my life and my husbands life with a wisdom far above his age.  I know that I might be painting an unrealistic picture of a 17 year old.  I will be the first to tell you that Scott was an obnoxious pain in the butt at times.  He was a typical teen in that he was moody and could be very difficult to be around.  But that does not mean that the other things I saw weren’t true.  That is my point.  I sure took a long time getting here hun?  Sorry for that.  My point is as mothers we want our children to love the Lord and we wonder how much control we really have. Sometimes we might even wonder ,like I have, what’s the point if God already has it all worked out.  The point is God desires to bless us as moms.  We are to see the fruit of our labor.  Maybe not all of us see the fruit every day but we need to look deeper sometimes.  We need to realize that we are blessed to have our children for however long God allows.  We are to show them God and His ways in hope that we will reap what we sow.  I NEVER or RARELY did it “right” with Scott or my other 2 children.  But I was consistent to share Gods love and to “introduce them to God”.  I still try to do that even now.  Even in my funk, I find myself defending God when members of my family feel abandoned.  Scott always used to say I had to add “The Jesus factor”.  That used to annoy me when he would say that.  One because I felt that he should think of it before I had to add it and two because I thought it made me sound like a nag.  Now I am pretty proud to wear that label.  I know I am blessed that I got to see the fruit of what I sowed.  Please keep praying for me and my family.  The anniversary of his death and everyone’s birthdays are all in Nov-Jan.  Thanks for all of the love!

Remember to God be the glory!  Thank You Lord for the 17 years I was Scott’s mom!